Am i actually a Emo guy?

Haizz... i am always like this , always think of nonsense and worried about this and that... made me frustrated... and sometimes i cant even think of anything... it was like my mind was blank out.... and i wonder why.... many people said i was so emo...but i dont really get that...i am emoing ^^ kinda like... i didn't noticed that i am emoing or something... but the time i was alone... i really think of anything... but really the sad moments...really could make me cry... but of cause the tears doesn't really come out from my eyes ...sometimes even a song or a music could make me think of something...memories..that`s why ... when i go to vacation or a trip... i will bring my MP3 so that the song will record my memories... and when i heard back the songs i brought to the trip... i will remember what i done that day.. and it was really fun after all . Haha... people mostly took camera to snap their memories... but i record them by musics... and songs. 1 more thing is... the moments i recorded sometimes is with my families... but to me... without anybody other than my parents... i actually feel lonely... When in the night in the sentosa island i went in singapore...that night... i can feel like i am in a winter... the cold breeze blew through me... and i feel sad cause that there`s nobody beside me... experience the Music Fountain that night... the feelings... was like you are nobody in a middle of a forest covered by snow... and lost of directions... blind.. blank... i was like in the dark nobody caring me.... by the way... all of this ... have a exception with my parents ^^ cause the caring they gave me is different haha.... but the love i seek of... is different from the love from my parents... that i can actually share with... someone... that i really care... and when that night came... i was missing someone... but the problem here is.... the one i was missing... couldn't know... i am missing her... haha... kinda over already... back to what i am writing... i actually don't know what i am writing either hehe... why do the pain of loneliness that i suffer have to be so pain? 16 Years... of pain... was like i am burnt and was like i was sitting alone under the sky of a full moon... and the moon were bright and round.. but i was alone watching the moon... and the wind blew slowly... like a snow of the winter... that ever fall on the night... waa... where am i? i think that's all for today... nonsense is enough haha... wonder if i wrote anything meaningful. BYe... oyasumi nasai(Gd nite)

The Idiot mind of mine...

For these few days... i was worrying about time`s not enough.. and the homework that school gave quite a lot... that i nearly failed to finished them..but in the end i also finished it...even though i finished my homework... but i will be worrying about can't finished my homework ... cause of i don't know how to schedule my time. I was always slacking around end up... always worrying about my homework... haizz... how long i am gonna suffer a boring life like this? sadness of being alone all the time... while nobody come in to comfort you when you need somebody. I am an idiot that don't know what to do... i am a really stupid person... that have a blank mind.... i am still wondering how people think about me.... for the nonsense i am typing right now... hehe... i hope there`s somebody i could share my smile with... maybe the 1 i love? really is hard to be a person.... life is complicated and also hard , difficult and sad... problems that is coming always... making me always ignore everything... who out there...that will comfort me ? when i need somebody... i am like a sky without clouds.... and space without stars.... 1 shoe of a pair... 1 chair of a set of a table... a sun without a moon... a moon without stars at night... i am kinda like that kind of situation now... I can't actually endure anymore this kind of situation... the Pain Of Loneliness...and sometimes.... i do feel that if i love someone secretly... is useless but... maybe after confessed to her... i may ending up getting reject... by the way... i am bored of this kind of life.... who could actually pull me out of a well.... that i fall down .... and actually was like nobody help me out... and nobody care about me... The Pain Of Lonely Is the most pain i ever suffer... is a pain inside the heart... like i had been stab by a sword... or a knife.. before sleep... i will also think of... something... that mostly like... memories that are unforgettable... hehe... that will make me sleep well... but after wake up the next morning... i feel the same thing... when nobody was beside me... and all.... Listening to music alone... eating alone ... studying alone. Play games alone... and ... sleeping alone.. haha... i think that`s all for today. janai( Cya)