The Idiot mind of mine...

For these few days... i was worrying about time`s not enough.. and the homework that school gave quite a lot... that i nearly failed to finished them..but in the end i also finished it...even though i finished my homework... but i will be worrying about can't finished my homework ... cause of i don't know how to schedule my time. I was always slacking around end up... always worrying about my homework... haizz... how long i am gonna suffer a boring life like this? sadness of being alone all the time... while nobody come in to comfort you when you need somebody. I am an idiot that don't know what to do... i am a really stupid person... that have a blank mind.... i am still wondering how people think about me.... for the nonsense i am typing right now... hehe... i hope there`s somebody i could share my smile with... maybe the 1 i love? really is hard to be a person.... life is complicated and also hard , difficult and sad... problems that is coming always... making me always ignore everything... who out there...that will comfort me ? when i need somebody... i am like a sky without clouds.... and space without stars.... 1 shoe of a pair... 1 chair of a set of a table... a sun without a moon... a moon without stars at night... i am kinda like that kind of situation now... I can't actually endure anymore this kind of situation... the Pain Of Loneliness...and sometimes.... i do feel that if i love someone secretly... is useless but... maybe after confessed to her... i may ending up getting reject... by the way... i am bored of this kind of life.... who could actually pull me out of a well.... that i fall down .... and actually was like nobody help me out... and nobody care about me... The Pain Of Lonely Is the most pain i ever suffer... is a pain inside the heart... like i had been stab by a sword... or a knife.. before sleep... i will also think of... something... that mostly like... memories that are unforgettable... hehe... that will make me sleep well... but after wake up the next morning... i feel the same thing... when nobody was beside me... and all.... Listening to music alone... eating alone ... studying alone. Play games alone... and ... sleeping alone.. haha... i think that`s all for today. janai( Cya)